In all actuality, the last twoish weeks have been pretty awful. But what I didn't realize until now is that I was the only one making them awful. The thing about the MTC is that your life, schedule, etc. are the exact same thing day after day, so the only thing different about now and when I first got here is my attitude. And the last few weeks I had a terrible attitude. I was sick of unhealthy cafeteria food, sick of not having enough time to work out, sick of waking up early, sick of being stuck with the same people constantly, sick of being in Provo and missing my friends, and sick of myslef to be honest. On Sunday, the Sacrement/Releif Society/etc. theme was Enduring to the End. President and Sister Perriton gave the most amazing talks and it was just what I needed. I really love how direct President Perriton is. He just says it like it is without sugar coating anything. I really love people like that. I also got released as STL. Thank goodness! Haha. Usually MTC STLs get released a few days before they leave, but I got realeased like 2 weeks early. I'm pretty sure it is because I was the worst STL that ever existed. Oops. But I tried my best and gave it my all (which pretty much sucked half of my soul out of me) so that's all that matters. Some people (like me) just suck at being leaders, but that's okay. The Lord only requires us to be His followers. Everything else is just an extra opportunity to learn and grow. And if all I am is an obedient regular old missionary who gets the job done and loves the people, I'm perfectly happy with that. Plus, I don't have to go to a thousand meetings on Sundays! Yay!! We also had the most amazing devotional on Sunday night. The speaker was Brother Steven B. Allen. He spoke to us on my first or second week here and at the time he delivered a message that was exactly what I (and every other newbie missionary) needed to hear. On Sunday, he have a talk on Enduring to the End that was exactly what I (and every other burned out missionary) needed to hear. It was really wonderful. After Sunday, I decided that I needed to make a serious attitude adjustment. I decided to make 후회없이 (no regrets) my mantra for the next little bit and possibly for the rest of my mission. I made it a point to be more focused and postive and to not let any goals slip by unaccomplished. I have been much happier since.
We get our travel plans on Friday! I can't wait to have my ticket to Korea in my hands. I am so ready. Even if I speak zero 한국말 and understand even less, I am just ready for the coach to throw me in the water and let me learn how to swim. I am so ready for a new setting, challenge, and growing experience.
A fun little tidbit from this week:
The other night there was a thunderstorm, and we were all sick of being inside all day. Lucky for me, the sisters in my district also love the rain and we all went outside in our PJ's and danced in the rain. It was super fun and really great to cut loose for a second. It's so easy to get uptight here when in actuality the MTC is really just a big playground where we learn how to be real missionaries. The best advice I could give to anyone is to not take the MTC too serisouly. It will lead you to compare yourself to others and that will drive you crazy. The MTC is a playground. I can't emphasize that enough. Enjoy that before you go into the real world and you are accountable for yourself, your companion, and other people's eternal salvation!
And that's all I have to say about that.
I love y'all so much!
Bises,
사랑합니다!!
"I you love!!"
Johns 자매
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| Picture with our mission president in training! He and his wife were the coolest humans! They started the church in Benin in their apartment! Now there is a whole mission there! We learned so much from them! |
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| Crazy kids |
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